What If .

WHAT and IF are common words people uses everyday

But,when they both comes together,it may hunt us forever!  believe it

People get 'regretive' over things..
Like me, i regret on leaving you..

i knew you for so long and we were like this...having fun all time...by morning you give me a sweet call

and by the afternoon, we were hanging out at most of the times..

and by the night time , you call me and gave me a lullaby warmth of your hugs like never before

and the next day i wake up, you'll baby me time to time..

let me smile and laugh all the time..kept me entertained with your jokes

BUT NOW,the next morning i got up of bed,

i see no text messages, aint no missed calls but our fight last night that threw us appart

but baby maybe you dont know, for me..im partly relieved on the break up..

as that guy before you hadn't exactly get of my mind yet.

so, baby

you can call me whore,bitch or anything that makes up your day but im glad that i actually broke up for the right reason.,

and now that you have her, i can see you being happy all time,and being awesome again

if she brings you happiness, i wish you happiness ;)

there is sometime i feel like tearing down..and wished i'd bare with you longer..

but now that i know...that i regret breaking up with you, im pretty sure that maybe i will regret being together with you again..im afraid of everything,..include this !!! =(

but honey, if she ever make you down, dun forget, we used to wrestle together and i'll have her neck broke

anything tht come upon you, remember...

i'll be here for you

The Shoe Craze

I mean like..Duh~ 16,Babeh
my heels..practically 3 of them are torned out..
Im thinking if my feets are having sharp epis.
Anyway,i GOOGLED on heels like

1)  CRISTIAN LOUBOUTIN

2) Gucci

3) Crazy PRADA

4) Marc Jacobs!

ARGH! i need em like 911!!

and the i-duno-the-brand-but-its-nice heelsss....

Practically this is sumkind of J-Lo inspired

Curtains/Laces inspired probably?

King of Pop style inspired! =D

I'm too short - QUOTE inspired

innocent princess type maybe?

my god,so sweet heel =)

another Cristian Louboutin heels x)

ahhh!!!! buy me one !!! xD

TAKE THAT !!! damn you

He sent : Shanzee ! I really do miss you !

I replied : WHAT?! ..Why suddenly

He said : I miss you,,

I joked: Go to hell ..

He stammered: huh?..but for real,i do miss you

I yelled : GO TO HELL !!

(HE DIDNT REPLY)

So if you think its so easy to get me back by ' I MISS YOU',

sorry..you're just stupid..

even my DOG wouldnt have done that..

Worst, you ignored me all the time when you have HER..

and now,that she is gone..you're coming back for me?

WHAT ARE YOU ??

im not the kinda girl who goes crazy after you

BUT I WAS..but now,sorry,..you are just another RUBBISH i trembled over..

_NO OFFENSE_

But i need to thank you for some reasons..

1.Thanks for making me realise never get tricked by sweet texts

2.Thanks for making me think a lot..it helped in my PMR!

3.Thanks for taking everything i have..i just gotta have NEW ONES

4.Thanks for making me realise that crying over YOU is nothing but enjoyments

5.Thanks for leaving me.

6.Thanks for telling me imma JERK.Im happy.Cause u are worst

7.Thanks for making me cry..i need to freshen my eyes

Well....Im just getting better now..

all because of you...

so thanks,,thanks for breaking my heart,,,

i hope u can go on with your damn life and someone would just push you down the skyscraper....

And yeah,you'll go to hell !!

Your face makes me ill and felt loathe!!

HMPH~

Now i have someone..

I dun need you..

Maybe this is your first rejection from a girl huh?

Good,,im too proud to be the first one!

but im quite sure i aint gonna be the last one...

Dang u =)

I AM AWESOME AND YOU ARE NOT !!!

deal with it...who's stronger now?? 

The four main walls ~!

I personally built this tough-standing walls beside me ..
Yes im being selfish but in a good way ..
Im just sick of being that girl i am now..
I just wanna be me..
The girl who laugh at everything even if its not funny~
The girl who tramples a bout her thoughts
The girl who dont give a damn of others words
The girl who appreciates almost everything
The girl who look into the mirror and talk to herself =.=
The girl who smiles at everyone
The girl who jumped here and there tirelessly..

But now..im the girl
who stay silent
who stay isolated
who stayed fatigue
who keep things to herself
who thinks she's nothing
who never be appreciated of
who ruins her own damn life

What does it means to stay like a biatch ..
I just miss my last me
I just cant get over the pain
Iwant a relationship,not a relationshit
Make sense huh  =D

I need someone who can run through my walls
and save the concured me
i cant stay endured
its my life , its now or never..
i aint gonna live forever  =D


KLMN ♥♥♥♥♥

Let it rain over me ~!

Well... i get a pretty awesome GIFT after my DARLING PMR ~~
Its a cam'ra from my brother ..

 Pretty much to say that im having this awesome thingy..

Makes me feel like im the only girl in the world

(SNAP! Zee,u r speaking rubbish)

This menage a trois feeling inside of me had taken the whole lots of myself

Where had it gone to?

I wished to know..

I always get wad i wished for..

(IM A DADDYS GIRL)

but now, this time..instincts shaken me that im not getting wad i want..

NEVER EVER EVER..

And im getting this vibration of 'STAY AWAY FROM HIM'

Its tough,YES IT IS

Its painful, SURE IT IS

But i gotta do it

I always say im strong..which i encountered im not..

WAD A DISAST!

PMR is over..

doesnt mean my miseries are gone for good

They got more powerful and taking control of me

hmmmmmmm...wad to do...LIFE MAR!!!

I KNOW I'LL NEVER HAVE YOU

And im not sad bout it  

AND I DONT GIVE A **** WAD U THINK OF ME

BYEBYE rubbish bastard

Today was a fairytale ~

Hmm..  Today I was extremely down,
Thanks to my little cute cute cousin..
I managed to have a good time...

There she is,,cute right?
IM THE PHOTOGRAPHER note that

Even a ten year old girl can act EMO!

My cute cute cousin took this..
yah yah,...an applause to her,,  XD

This is taken from my Daddy's room..
Tken by cute cute Yeenyi..
Love it love it love it   =D

TODAY WAS A FAIRYTALE...

FORGIVE ME ~

Look , Im Sorry

Never meant to hurt you

Never meant to leave you

All i get from that was just worst

I was going out of my mind

After almost everyone just freak me out

Maybe leaving me would be the best

But you know I'll always love you

I DO WHAT I LOVE ! (POSE)

FIRST OF ALL, I LOVE POSSING ~
YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN

THIS WAS MY FIRST N I LOVE IT~

AND IT CAME DOWN TO THIS ~
IT WAS TAKEN DURING A CLUB'S INSTALLATION

ITS THE SAME ~ XD

A LITTLE POSE N EDIT WILL MAKE IT~

LOOK~~MY BROTHER ISNT A BAD POSSER ANYWAY XD
IM INTO POSSING  ..
ITS JUST MY THING  
=D

WHO DO I LOVE ???

Well Well Well....         =.=''

                                                   See...This little KAPSIAO good girl...
                                         She is CUTE + GOOD + SMALL + AUTHENTIC

                                                     Well...This is what she LOVE most
                                                               BRAINY...  mine is CLUMSY  

                                                                      Yayayayayayayayaya~
                                                       SHE LOVES TAYLOR SWIFT

                                   SEE SEE SEE ..... she's the craziest among the craziest !!
                                                                  AGREE AGREE  !!

                                                   AND OF COURSE SHE LOVES ME
  *  NG JING YI
  *  jingyiangie@gmail.com  ( her FACEBOOK )
      and look for her blog..they're awesome..






=D 

I LOVE CRAPPING !!

I hereby , to make this a formality to consider the retreat of the DEMONS and worst all.
And i further do proceed, you , A.K.A : MR.BLOODY BASTARD..oce upon a glorious INGLORIOUS time,many months and lightyears passed, i had fallen for you ...=/
And I honourly pronouned i had LOVED you. Please not the past tense i stated obviously
Unfaithly exclaiming,loving a HUMAN-LIKE SCULPTURE  was nothing but amazement and fascination.But end up,it was nothing more than BETRAYAL !!
I flashed back the memoirs planted in my four parts maniac brain,,,my friend had once told me...LOVE IS MAGICAL....but then DAVID BLAINE confessed tht MAGICS ARE ILLUSIONS which never had truth besides deceiving
I hope she will come to u at your lowest confidence moment and SMASH yor head into GABILLION ZILLION pieces and stomp on you with her 6-INCH PRADA heels..
And when time ticks and ticks..you dun even think of coming CRAWLING back for me!
YOU ARE NOTHING BUT LIKE A VIRTUAL PRISONER IN A SOLITARY CONFINEMENT!!
Afterall, my life are like a bed of rosses now..living HAPPILY WITHOUT THORNS (you)  ..
SCREW IT DUMBASS  (ooppss)   =D

IF I DIE YOUNG ~

If I die young ,

Burry me in Satin

Lay me down on a bed of Roses

Sink me in the river at dawn

Send me away with the words of a love song

Lord , make me a Rainbow

I'll shine it on my Mother

She knows I'm safe with you when she stands under my colors

And life aint always what you thing it ought to be

Aint even grey but she burries her Baby..

The sharp knife 

of a short life

I had just ample enough time

And I'll be wearing white

When i come into your kingdom

Im as green as the ring on my little,cold finger

I've always never known the loving of a man

But it sure felt nice when he was holding my hand

There's a boy

saying he'll love me Forever

Who could have thought forever could be severed by

A penny for my thoughts

NO!

I'll sell it for a dolar

They're worth so mush after i'm a GONER

Maybe then you hear the words i've been singing
Funny when your dead and people start listening

The ballad of a dove..

Gon with peace and love

Gather up your tears..

Keep em in your pocket

Save them for a time

When you really gonna need them

So put on your best boys

And I'll wear my Pearls

Dont You Remember ?

When will I see you again?
You left with no goodbye, not a single word was said,
No final kiss to seal any seams,I had no idea of the state we were in,

I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When was the last time you thought of me?
Or have you completely erased me from your memory?
I often think about where I went wrong,
The more I do, the less I know,

But I know I have a fickle heart and bitterness,
And a wandering eye, and a heaviness in my head,

But don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

Gave you the space so you could breathe,
I kept my distance so you would be free,
And hope that you find the missing piece,
To bring you back to me,

Why don't you remember?
Don't you remember?
The reason you loved me before,
Baby, please remember me once more,

When will I see you again?

You Got Me Suffering ~ ='[

I wish there's the bright star shining upon me,
And there I'll lay down with the fresh ground of grass in the dusk,
Flashing back the memories in my mind ; in my life..
Under haunted skies i see you..when your love is gone..
your ghost is found..
Nothing had appeared worst than you ,
You are as if the monster inside of me..
Leaving me nothing but heartache,,i know a heartache when i felt it..
Its not an easy task to go through..
Thinking of all 'what if's '
I'm seriously sorry and apologising with my 10 fingers arranged close..
Asking for forgiveness and stop begging you for mercy..

Free me already from the toughest,

I had to go on

Not thinking of how you treated me for revenge

I dont even can recall the moment I hurt you

Seems like I never did

But the thing buzzing in my mind

is why should you treat me like I've killed your mother

I dont hate u

I just hate the way you treat me

But i will smile,

To let you know..

I dont give a shit about you

I dont care about you

And the best thing is 

I hope I had NEVER met you

But unfortunately i did..

Now,I would NEVER forget what you did to me!